Yesterday marked one week being back in our village with
Musa. The journey to get here was not
without its drama. The morning I was to take Musa from the hospital, I was
talking with a nurse who informed me that Musa is a sickle cell patient. (This is a disease that isn’t uncommon here
but we hadn’t tested for it at my hospital.) I panicked. As sad as I was to
take Musa home to most likely die, I’d come to terms with it and was ready to
move ahead with a plan. This new information threw everything off. Would the treatment change? Was there more we
could do now? If so, how was I going to pay for it? While I was thrilled at the
thought that we might be able to turn things around, my plans were all of the
sudden thrown off and once again I felt like I had no idea what to do.
I waited around to speak with his doctor. He confirmed that yes, he did have sickle
cell disease. (This is a genetic disease
in where many of your red blood cells are in the shape of a half-moon instead
of circles. This makes the blood unable to flow fluidly and often gets “stopped
up” at the corners.) However, he was
still in need of dialysis. This new information helps us understand why he
might have gone into renal failure in the first place. (I went home and was
researching sickle cell on the internet and read that the most common cause for
death among these patients is organ failure, particularly kidney failure).
However, because his kidneys were already so damaged and were failing, our
treatment course couldn’t change. He
still needed dialysis which meant that we were still taking him home.
The night before we were to take him home, I tested positive
for malaria. I was a little relieved!! I’d been having symptoms for a couple of
days but when I initially tested, it was negative. When the symptoms returned, I thought that my
alleged hypochondria was in overdrive and my coping mechanisms were just shot. So when my weakness, nausea, fever and chills
were explained with one little line on a malaria test, I felt glad that I hadn’t
completely lost my mind. But now I was in a quandary. I hadn’t had this
particular strain of malaria yet. And this was the bad one. The one that kills
the white people. My co-workers that had had this one had been hospitalized,
delirious and in need of IV fluids. Apparently
the symptoms are worst in the 12-24 hours after starting treatment. If I
started treatment that night, I would be feeling bad right about the time I was
beginning a day long drive up country with a carload of people and one sick
kid. I contemplated delaying my
treatment and just risking it for a little while until I got home, but…..the
nurse in me wouldn’t let me do that. This particular strain makes me afraid. I
would say that anyone who was contemplating that was an idiot. So I couldn’t do it. After a lot of
deliberation, we decided that Musa could go and stay with his uncle for one
night and then hopefully the next day I would feel well enough to travel.
God is so good. The morning after my mom announced to the
world via Facebook that I was sick I got on in the morning and started crying
at all of the people praying for and encouraging me. And praise God I didn’t
get that sick! In fact it was my “best” case of malaria so far!! So thank you thank you thank you!
The morning we were to travel I left the house at 8am. We reached our village at 8pm. It was a grueling
day. Between the traffic, bad road, potty stops for Musa and Marie and rest
stops when Musa just couldn’t take the bumps anymore, it took us FOREVER to get
home. But we did. Musa looked awful. It
took a lot out of him and he was exhausted.
I didn’t know what to expect when we got home. I’ve never
done this whole “waiting to die” thing with a patient at home, so I really had
no idea how long it would take. My
friend Peter and I have gone to see him every day since we arrived. For the
first three or four days, he looked really rough. At one point he was so
discouraged he said he’d rather die that continue to be sick like this. That was
heartbreaking. But then about three days
ago, he seemed to turn a corner! He called me one evening crying in pain so I
bought a medication to inject for the pain and went to give it to him. The next
day when I went to see him, I was amazed at the difference! His breathing was
better, he wasn’t in the pain anymore, and he said he felt stronger. He has
gradually improved a little each day.
Before Musa was sick Peter and I were doing a Bible Study at
my house with him and a couple other people every Thursday evening. Last night
we took the Bible Study to his house. I strayed from our previous topics and
talked about suffering. I’d been thinking about it a lot lately. As I was
preparing for the study I was overwhelmed by the hope that I truly do have because
of Jesus. I know that my suffering is so small compared Musa’s and millions of
other people all over the world. But I’m so thankful that to whatever degree I
suffer, I have hope now, and I have hope for my future.
Thank you all so much for the encouragement that you’ve been
to me during this time. You have NO idea how much it’s meant!! I don’t know what the future holds for Musa…..but
I’m praying that we will both learn to cling to the Hope that we have.
Marie and I hanging out with Musa at his house |
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